Anxious about everything?

What does the picture above look like to you? A normal girl yeah? That’s true, but to me, the girl above has been blessed with much more than she deserves. In the midst of life’s turbulence, she scales through with such ease and grace, made accessible to her by her heavenly Father. The girl above shouldn’t be anxious for whatever is to come because everything she has worried about in the past, she looks at now and sees that they worked out eventually.

Last summer, I worried about getting a summer job, an internship, and a lot more. I didn’t consider that in God’s huge plan for me, maybe I wasn’t ready for those things. He was opening other doors for me at the time, but I was concerned with getting the big doors open that I didn’t realize that the small steps I was taking was God leading me to a bigger purpose (how often does this happen to us?). 

You would think this means I stop worrying, that I just pray and go about my business. Unfortunately, this isn’t the case, anxiety creeps up unnoticeably, and my mind wanders. I worry about what the future holds, about grades, doing better for myself, career, relationships, after life, and a lot more.When God solves one problem, I have already found ten other problems that need solving. God will open a door for me, but I’ll still question if at any moment, the door will close again (why?). I forget that my Bible reads “Consider the birds of the sky: They don’t sow or reap or gather into barns, yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Aren’t you worth more than they?” Matthew 6:26. If I am going to follow the scriptures word for word, I have to acknowledge this verse and hold onto its truth.

Anxiety is a normal human trait, I haven’t met anyone who doesn’t struggle with it, so don’t think you’re alone if you’re always feeling anxious. Now, I do not know what the steps to curing anxiety are, I doubt there is even a formula for curing it. It is probably one of those conditions that can be managed not cured. I hope no one will think I am writing this because I have solved the anxiety dilemma, but I have come a long way in dealing with it.

I spend more time now showing gratitude and appreciating everything I have (in a non-conceited way). When I notice myself worrying about the slightest thing like what to eat, I mouth a word of prayer and trust the Creator of the universe (Daddy J) to work his magic (and it works), because if he can create the entire world, he can feed me. I write everything down rather than wallow in my thoughts until they consume me. Everything seems simpler and solvable when written on paper. I make plenty to do lists and notes, from shopping lists to career goals.

I’m looking forward to a day when life will be without struggle, but that won’t happen till God comes back to cast evil away. Wouldn’t life be a bliss if anxiety was no more? I know it will. I hope you enjoyed reading this, share your thoughts below, I’ll love to read them.

p.s. do you like the blog’s new look? Cause I’m digging it.